{until}

some people realized i left a recent {or not so recent} update kind of, open-ended.... well we had some things in the works, and they have come through. for the past several months i have been struggling with finding my own self worth. other struggles have been placed on top of that and have taken some time to dig through. cameron used to work really long hours like 12 hours a day 5 to 6 days a week. it was killing us, him and me. after sundance closed their doors and he found a new job that doesn't allow him to work over 40 hours a week i thought things would ease for me and my mind, however they didn't. we have tried giving me one night out a week to get a break from all that the girls needed and to just figure out how to be heidi and not just "mom." this helped quite a bit, but it has been so long since i have just done what i wanted, that i had no idea what to do. i do get the chance to have dinner with friends though and that is nice. but still fulfillment eluded me. it finally slapped me upside the head what i needed to do, and i was really hesitant, but everything is working out better than i could imagine.


i

went

back

to

work!!!!!!

i love it!!!! i work one night a week in the nursery at the hospital.. rocking babies, feeding babies, changing diapers, burping babies... everything i do at home, but i get paid for it!!!! i don't really care about the pay, but the chance to get back to nursing could not feel better. i have been so lucky to get to spend the last 5 years at home with my kids, and i may be a bad mom for not finding fulfillment in being "just mom," but i needed the outlet and a chance to be "heidi." part of being me is being a nurse-- it is a part of my soul, my person---- me.... i don't know what this adventure will bring for me, but i am most grateful for the opportunity!!!!!

(lady/kai)bug birthday

confused about the title.... well you probably are.... we call her kai-bug and she wanted a lady bug party

so......

this week has been a lady bug party type theme


kairi celebrated her 6th birthday party and floored me with her maturity from 5 to 6 almost overnight.

here are the highlights...

ladybug pancakes compliments of her daddy


ladybug cake compliments of her mommy



birthday presents compliments of all in attendance




top ten trivia of kairi

10* loves to learn about anything especially science (volcanoes, and the way the body is designed)

9* loves to play with friends and there are plenty of them around here

8* loves junie b jones

7* loves her little sisters and is an awesome big sister

6* loves going to school, but hates to get out of bed for school (figure that one out) hehehe

5* has a great big heart and feels overwhelmed by her feelings sometimes

4* is very tech saavy (she can run the computer almost as good as i can)

3* loves to help out however she can

2* loves special time with the "special people" in her life

1* loves to *l*e*a*r*n* ( did i already mention that?) huh?


kairi i am so proud of how big you are getting and what a big girl you are.... i love you

{pics}

sorry i am not very inventive right now, but sometimes, it just doesn't happen......

but a heads up on {who} these are of....

kaitlynn {cameron's sister}
james {family friend}
michael {cameron's cousin}
kairi, kesslynn & elika {my girls} *like you didn't know*

{the game of life}

the top ten things that we have done since i last posted:

10: birthdays...... my birthday, cameron's birthday, and preparing for kairi's birthday

9: rolling over.. ellie mastered rolling over and would roll everywhere

8: water activities..... primary splash park, library closing activity generally participating in water games

7: redecorating.... painted two rooms in my house-- hurray

6: kindergarten... kairi started kindergarten and loves it....

5: crazy church stuff.... parties, new stake organized, oquirrh mountain temple dedication

4: zoo.... we visited the zoo {shocker}

3: grandma greats..... in one week we visited every great grandma the girls have. it wasn't on purpose, but it was enjoyable

2: crawling.... ellie now is a crawler, i tried to talk her out of it, but true to children she didn't listen

1: pictures... check out the slide show of my favorite pictures i have recentlu taken


kind of ant-climatic, but that is how our lives are right now..... until...

{lost but not forgotten}

whoops!! it would seem that i haven't updated in almost 2 months--- so sorry!! so keep checking back this coming week and i should have something or other posted of interest... don't anyone start thinking for one second that there is a "big announcement" or anything... my hiatus is more of finding my rhythm to life.... i'm sure there are some who can relate......

{bless this child}

we blessed our sweet ellie about a month ago. it was beautiful to have occur and always makes me feel better when my baby is blessed. we were so lucky to have all of our siblings able to attend and visit. i love both of our families and i don't know what i would do without them. anyhow, i finally go around to taking ellie's pictures in her blessing dress and so here they are showcased. also everyone should leave a comment as to their favorite and the winning picture will be posted in the sidebar.....

{spare me the change}

june 1







july 1









sundance rv decided to close up shop recently and we had to find a new job. luckily we were able to secure one quickly. after 6 years with sundance it was like going to the first day of school all over again. will we ever grow up? probably not.... but at least most people will keep every thought that comes to their minds to themselves, and we don't have to raise our hands to be excused from the lunch table. but he does have to wear a name badge.........

{sucker}

ellie found her thumb.....

by the way she sucks on it, it must be cherry flavored.....

{singing in the room}

the boys had a LAN {local area network} party at our house a few weeks ago and were rocking out to "gamer-music"  i couldn't resist taping them and really couldn't resist posting it...... welcome to my home!!!!

{munchies}

what do you do when you have a hankering for something and a {few} coupons to get it..... 

you splurge.... 

like this!!!!!